I've brought myself to the very brink of calamity and now find myself in the fatal moment where you all of a sudden stops taking heedless steps and slowly take in the extent of the peril you find yourself in. I do wish it hadn't come to this, but I suppose it was inevitable. And we all have our crosses to bear.

So for the moment, no stimulants, no chocolate, no coffee, sufficient sleep and (most difficult of all by far) a constructive perspective.

But I think I'm going to be all right.